Amanda Knox: 'I fight to defend innocents like me'

The ex-girlfriend imprisoned for four years for the killing of Meredith Kercher in Perugia has become a mother. But she hasn't forgotten. She has transformed the weight of her that she carries within her into a civil commitment. And of the murderer Rudy Guede, now free, he says: 'Remain a criminal'

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On November 1st 15 years ago, in the same place and almost at the same time, a person died and a character was born. The person was Meredith Susanna Kercher , was 21 years old, was found dead on the floor of her room in a villa in Perugia. Rudy Guede was convicted of the murder, and they were acquitted, after four years in prison each, Raphael Sollecito and Amanda Marie Knox Photo | video

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In almost all cases of great resonance, the victim is reduced to a walk-on, but more so in the Via della Pergola crime: and this is because a character – Amanda Knox, alias Foxy Knoxy (Knox the cunning, but also Knox the sexy) – obscured everything else, including the truth. It was the Perugian prosecutor's office who 'built' it, which against all evidence, including scientific evidence, imagined her as the incarnation of the dark lady, a cross between Circe and Lady Macbeth, but more ruthless than both. Many fell for it, tabloids in the lead because, as the reporter of the Daily Mail Nick Pisa in the Netflix documentary Amanda Knox, «we wrote what we were told and didn't check that it was true: otherwise we would have lost a scoop and, believe me, seeing your name on the first page is like having sex».

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In the procedural fiction, which stood up in the first degree of judgment, the character Amanda Knox slaughtered Meredith at the end of 'an erotic game gone wrong', but in reality she also made another victim: Amanda Marie Knox, the twenty-year-old from Seattle that she had landed in Perugia 'to learn the world and Italian'. Now that girl is a 35-year-old woman, and she lives on Vashon Island, Wash., with her husband Chris Robinson and their one-year-old daughter, Eureka Muse. She paired with Chris she produces a podcast (Labyrinths) 'in which we interview people about the moments in which they have felt most lost in their lives', and she does activism to prevent judicial errors and help those who are victims. We interview her by email.

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It has been 15 years since that tragedy. How much has it changed? «I am still the Amanda who set foot in Perugia for the first time. I have the same personality, the same dreams, the same sense of humor. The biggest difference is that now I carry within me a huge, deep source of sadness that wasn't there before. But you know what? Deep down I am grateful to this source: it allows me to help others in a much more effective way».

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On her Instagram profile, she first defines herself as 'exoneree', a survivor of a mistrial. Is this the most important piece of information you want known about her? “If there's one thing I don't mind about being 'the girl accused of murder' it's that I now belong to an incredibly strong and supportive community of people who were acquitted after being wrongly convicted. Through them I found a way to extract a sense, almost gratitude from the worst experience of my life. Having said that, I identify more in my role as a wife and mother.'

She was definitively acquitted in 2015. But acquitted does not mean free: do you feel free? “I am infinitely grateful to be alive and to have been cleared. But nothing can pay back the four years I spent in prison for no reason, and nothing can undo the trauma that has been inflicted on my family, friends and me. I still suffer the stigma of a false accusation: I will always remain the 'girl who was accused of murder'.

She has always been torn between the desire to lose track of herself and the need to convince those who still don't believe in her innocence. It is still so? “For a moment I hoped I could go back to living in peace, in complete anonymity. But I soon discovered that it would not be possible: the story of the girl accused of a murder was too compelling for the media and the entertainment industry to give up exploiting it for profit, without asking my permission, and portraying me in a distorted way. However, I understood that my point of view had value, and I decided to share it. Of course I hope that after hearing my story people will get to the truth, but my well-being no longer depends on being able to convince others. It depends on my ability to use well what has happened to me.

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In the book he has just published, The benefit of the doubt (published in Italy by Augh!) Rudy Guede declares himself a victim of racism and guilty only of not having helped Meredith, who he allegedly found (and left) dying. He places her at the scene of the crime, together with a boy who, however, he does not identify. What does he think? «I think that, after 13 years in prison, it is probable that Guede is no longer a danger to society. But I also think that prison has not re-educated him. A person who continues to accuse the innocent of the crime he committed, and who refuses to give the truth to a family devastated by grief (the Kerchers , ndr), remains a criminal.

Do you still think about Meredith? «I haven't finished processing what happened to me in Italy yet, and therefore Meredith is always in my thoughts. I'll never forget that, of the two of us, I'm the lucky one. And I'm still shocked by the horror of what happened to her at the hands of Rudy Guede.'